Cecilia

I go back and forth a lot - I have two kids and they came out of here, I've been fat my whole life, and some days it's like... well, it just is what it is. Then other days I look at myself and I say "F*** yeah, I'm super hot!" Stress is actually the biggest factor of whether I like me for me. On the worst days, it's usually that something else had gone wrong, and then I would put something on and it just didn't feel right - and that's me not being enough.⠀
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My parents were very supportive of me; my mom was stick thin her whole life, and she had a fat, very goth daughter and she loved me anyway. She told me it was the only body I was ever gonna get, so even if it wasn't always what I wanted, it was mine. My parents trusted me to care for myself and make decisions for myself. In the last ten years I lost both of them, and I hate that they were the exception in that way.⠀
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I'm not just bigger, I'm taller too - even taller than my male partners. I may worry that they want someone travel size, but I'm a whole suitcase! That's just who I am. It's what they have to accept.