I've taken a break from exercising for about a year now, so I've lost a bit of the confidence I had before. I know I can lose the weight, but I feel like I've plateaued at a certain size and to get below that I feel like I need to work even harder. It's less about a certain weight and more about a certain shape I want to be. It's about how I want to present myself. I want to feel that accomplishment, and I know it's something I'll have to maintain afterwards.⠀
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I used to feel trapped in my body — I've lost over a hundred pounds. That body caused me physical pain, and as that pain — especially back pain — started to go away, I felt like I could push myself harder. I've only been that far overweight once in my life, so I had some dysmorphia; I didn't recognize myself. But since I lost the weight, the way I carry myself, I get so many more compliments than I ever did — just the other day a lady complimented me on my hair; and it's not just that I wasn't getting those compliments when I was overweight, I wasn't getting those compliments before I gained the weight!
